I had a heavy group session on Friday. The weight of uncontrollable anger, participating in risky behaviour, being attached to unhealthy relationships & people, punishing yourself, feeling guilty and the rest that comes with BPD. To be around people who have experienced very similar things and held onto the same baggage of shame, guilt, unworthiness is bittersweet. It makes me feel less alone, but it makes me so sad that we all go through this distress and by ourselves too. There is so much baggage that we hold onto, while trying to appear fine or not like a bad person. Trying to juggle other peoples feelings and our own is exhausting; this thing is so heavy.